school yawn

ok, so I am sat writing this blog from the school library, Im meant to be on a study period but can't go home and have no inclination to do any form of work although there are so many things I need to do, english coursework psychology re-sit. Which brings me onto the psychology, how am I going to tell my mum i need to submit my psychology which will cost £17.50 and she is already going on about how little money she has and she thinks im doing ok. She hasn't seen my report card yet, im to scared to show her and she hasn't asked but im sure she knows, i keep tryong to hide it and i know thats its wrong but i feel like im sturggling and i can't ask her for help because she';; just get angry, My mum doesn't know the half of what goes on at school and what i hide from her. If she read this she would be so cross. Not to mention the other spending she doesn't know about. But aside from that its all ok. Sometimes i feel like im in to deep and struggling to stay afloat. also this issue with the friend, thing, (what am i typing here i don't know it doesn't even make sense) its like i have one friend which I don't but sometimes it feels like that, and im always trying to compete, and it doens't work :(

Today Ill go home and I won't do any more work and it'll just pile up, but somehow I always struggle through.

I can't wait though till all this is over, all this schooling, its the worst!